Love, one of the most subjective topics.....
There are so many unanswered questions regarding love, like, What is love? How is love? How do you when you're in love? What happens in love? Is one sided love, still love? Can you love someone deeply inspite of knowing you can never have them? How do you know if the love is true? How much should you trust a person in love? What is the extent one would go to for the sake of his/her love? Is it sensible to go against the norms of the society for love? Should one stand against the world to support his.her love? etc.

These are questions that cross our minds at some point or the other. But don't we know that love isn't describable? it has no definition. It cant be put in words. Why then, do we waste so much time and energy trying to find answers to these questions?

Love is a feeling, an emotion, something that cant be controlled, cant be forced, and nor can it be stopped. Well, some would say that it can be stopped. You can stop loving someone. To a point, they're right. But you cant completely stop your heart from caring for them.. Somewhere deep down, you stil have feelings for them, you're only burying those feelings, not erasing them.

And when you're in love, fighting against the whole world would seem like a small task. Nothing matters more than keeping your love happy. And love isn't about getting.
Sometimes, we love people even after knowing that there's nothing ahead. Yes, we have a lot of questions forming in our head. I do... My brain is ready to explode with all the questions inside. But finding answers to those questions would spoil the whole feeling of being in love.

So live life as it comes, enjoy the moment and don't fall in love, rise in love...

Keep loving:))

Ok, i just had an argument with my mom over whether a person should do what's right or what makes him/her happy. Her stand was personal happiness. And no, my stand wasn't doing the right thing. Instead, i believe that we should do things that makes us happy unless it hurts someone close to you. But whatever you do, should be out in the open and not hidden. (We pretended that it was jus a normal debate, but both of us knew what we were referring to;)).

Moving on... If you're doing something that makes you happy and doesn't hurt anyone in the process, then it would automatically be right. If it hurts someone or you hide it from someone, then you know its wrong. And in these cases are when you have to decide whether what you're doing is more important to you than the person who's being hurt. Agreed, that being humans, most of us are selfish and we'd be selfish and choose self-contentment, but is few moments of personal happiness really so worthy, that you'd hurt someone very close to you? inspite of knowing that your happiness would stay for a short time, but the woundyou give the other person isn't going to heal easily?

I dont think anything is worth hurting someone else's feelings.......

 
     When tomorrow starts without me and im not there to see,
     if the sun should rise and find your eyes filled with tears for me,
     i wish so much you wouldn't cry the way you did today while thinking of the many things we dint get to say.
     i know u luv me as much as i luv u n each time u think of me, i'll know u miss me too.......
 
     But wen tomo starts without me, pls try to understand,
     that angel came and called my name n took me by d hand.
     and said my place was ready and above tat
     id hav to leave behind all those i dearly love.....
 
     But as i turned to walk away,
     a tear fell from my eye
     for all my life, i always thought
     i didn't want to live....
 
     I had so much to live for,
     so much left to do.
     It almost seemed impossible that I was leaving you....
 
     I thought of all yesterdays- the good ones and d bad.....
 
     I thought of all the love we shared
     and all d fun v had.
     If i could relive yesterday for even a while,
     id say goodbye.....and kiss you and maybe see u smile......
 
     But den i realized tat this cud neva b,
     for emptiness and memories would take the place of me,
     and wen i tot of d worldly things i'l miss tomo,
     i thought of u......
     And wen i did, my heart was filled wid sorrow.....
 
     But wen I walk thru heaven's gates,
     I felt so much at home.
     wen GOD looked and smiled at me,
     frm his golden throne.....

My life was so simple and calm,
till you came and led me by the arm.
Now its different, full of color,
my life couldn't have been any fuller.

You taught me things, I'd never have known,
and left me thirsting for more and more.
You gave me with a sense of longing,
of being loved, a sense of belonging.

I thank you for staying at my side,
for being my teacher, friend and guide.
For I know, that i have found in you,
a love so sincere, love so true.

What are you supposed to do or feel when your own blood, your own family tells you to kill yourself???

 Why frown when you meet someone,
when a smile is all you have to give?
Why bear a grudge against anyone,
when all you have to do is forgive?

Why reach out for the stars,
when the world is at your feet?
Why crib about failures,
when success tastes so sweet?

Why let anger rule your life,
when it is so easy to be calm?
Why rake up others' wounds,
when you can apply a balm?

Why run after more wealth,
when what you have is enough?
Why cry about being poor,
when all you need is a good laugh?

Why waste time grumbling,
when each moment is precious?
Why not just be grateful,
For the life so much given to us?

why is it that often the people we love the most are the ones who hurt us the most?

ok i think im not continuing with my life story. i dont want to relive those haunting memories.

right now, im in a dilemma. I dont understand why do i always have to be confused about something or the other?
there's this person whom i want to forgive but i'm not able to.(does that make sense?) I seriously dont know where im heading. 

i'll continue later, my brains being ripped apart already.

here's an intro to my life... im not sure if i shud put up everythin or no.. so will decide as i reach there..
im a 17 yr old girl, whose had a verry "happenin" past. lol... wel, it was kinda mysterious and adventurous(if i can call it that). 
To start with, i had an abusive father who practised domestic violence. so all of my growing up years, i've been witnessing violence among my family. At the age of 12, i was dignosed with toxoplasma, which left me blind with my right eye. We tried everything to restore the vision, but my retina was damaged beyond repair. It was a little difficult adjusting to it but i did eventually. A few months later, we went for an overnight excursion through school. On the way, a boy who was one year my senior and supposed to be my friend, tried to molest me. The way he touched me at that time, was i think one of the biggest shocks i've recieved till date. but as always, god sent an angel to help me and i survived with just a few physical bruises. But mentally, i was scarred for life. 

[will continue in my next post... gud nyt]

ok, i admit. i was hesitant while creating this account. I'm actually not used to expressing my feelings. i never shared them with my family for 17 years of my life and here i am now puttin them up for the whole world to see.... woah!!!

i hope i maintain this blog at least.... hehe...
lets see how far it works..
cheerz!